Quite shamefully, I spend a significant chunk of my time watching vlogs on youtube. Often, these bloggers respond to their fan questions, with many asking them how they could start a blog or a youtube channel. Most of these bloggers say that you can’t start a blog/yt channel with the intention of getting famous. I always scoffed at the answer, because being the skeptical, cynical and pessimistic person that I am, I believed they were just saying what everybody wanted to hear. Like many “bloggers” out there they attempt to elude people from seeing how disingenuous the internet world can really be; it’s only too easy to place on a facade under the cloak of “fame”, and when a few hundred thousand followers can offer security from being exposed (I talk about purchasing followers here).
But after hearing the same righteous response again from yet another blogger, I began to believe this statement. Perhaps it was her conviction, but also perhaps this was the first time I properly reflected on why I blog and where my motivations come from.
I like to create things. I like to create them on my own. I like to have creative control over the things I make. I like having the ability to turn things that start off as just visions, into a reality. It’s a much more meaningful kind of satisfaction when I produce and design creations that seem like unattainable ideas concocted in my head or that money (or lack of it) simply cannot buy.
Creating content is my way of expressing my ideas visually. It’s the process I enjoy; and “posting” or “publishing” it for the world only supplies short lived gratification. Despite knowing that only one or two people actually pay any attention to the content I create, I do it regardless – why? Because more than anything, I do it for myself.
See the first vlog I am actually proud of, hopefully I’ll be able to get some more up sooner than later. Vlogs take ages to make, I have so much footage I have to cull through.